once again, i've let the blog slip through my cracks of responsibility. so, here is the may update.
starting off the month, of course, was my birthday. i did my standard birthday; took the day off, relaxed, and later met up with some friends for all you can eat bbq. i held off on the big shibang until the 14th because deadmau5 was doing a show as part of the springlove concert. more about that in a bit, though. the following weekend after my birthday was a small, themed get together in tien mu at a friend's house to celebrate cinqo de mayo. i've never really talked about tien mu much, mostly because it's a part of the city i almost never visit. set in the far north, it's home to what i like to call "little north america." basically, it's the whitest part of the city and feels too much like home for comfort...that said, the party was fun but we wrapped things up early to get home to the dog, then on to the W hotel for a few drinks in lavish comfort.
the next weekend was my turn to celebrate and a big group of us headed off to see deadmau5 perform his set. all in all, the show was good, but not great....the music wasn't high energy enough and truth be told, i enjoyed the dj before and after the main act...however, the light show was impressive and it's always fun to go to a big warehouse show. thankfully, we had sent the dog to a friend's place for a sleepover so we managed to get a few hours' sleep after pouring ourselves into bed.
last weekend, we ended up going to see john selway at the loft. again, not really the show i was hoping for...the music was good, but a little too repetitive for my liking. it felt like someone had logged into beatport and just pressed play on their playlist. it seems that a lot of dj's these days are getting complacent...yes, i'm sure it was very technical what you did, but i don't want to hear the same thing go on and on for 10 minutes. or maybe i'm just becoming an old fart...is that possible when you listen to electronic? i didn't think so, but i'm starting to think it might be.
on a different note, i'd like to say that the dog isn't really working out too well. it has only been about 2.5 months but it feels more like 2.5 years. rounding off the top three on the list of complaints are; the constant whining, the lack of toilet training, and the destruction of personal property. we've been vigilant and have been trying many different ways to address her issues, but honestly, it feels like none of it is working. we're walking here twice a day to give her exercise and social time with us. we're taking her upstairs once an hour to go to the bathroom with little results. we've given her countless toys and things to chew but still insists on biting almost everything. in fact, the chewing has gotten so bad that we've had to move everything upstairs so she can't get at it. my once beautiful, grown up apartment has been turned into a dog pen. and to top it off, all the changes we've made and all the things we do for her and she still pretty much whines constantly.
i have to say that i'm not really seeing the benefits of having a dog...it just feels like something else i have to do in my day that i'd rather not, like taking the bus to work. i don't look forward to going home because i know it's going to be all about her. by the time i've taken her out to go to the bathroom, made dinner, ate and then taken her for a walk, it's 8:00 pm. given the fact that i need to get to bed by 10:00 so i can be ready to do it all over again when she starts whining at 5:30, that doesn't really leave a lot of "me" time at the end of the day.
the prognosis is this: the dog (and us) has a finite amount of time to get things, or she's gone. that might not sound very fair, but i'm trying to see it from her perspective - she is alone a lot and if we don't have the time and energy to take care of, then it's not fair to her to expect her to behave in the manner we want. i wish i could just fast forward to 6 months from now and see how she is 'cos then i would be willing to keep going. that said, we haven't thrown in the towel just yet...she is getting her surgery done next week which should calm things down, and as of june 12th she will have her third shots which means she can finally, finally go to doggy day care a couple days a week. another consideration is that summer schedule at work begins on june 1st so i will be finishing up an hour earlier each day, allowing me more time. hopefully, these changes will be a positive influence in the dog's life and we can continue our co-habitation. i really can't continue on the way i have been...rage bubbles under the surface at all times and i am sick of feeling this way.
there, venting feels good...on a more positive note i have come up with a project that is going to get some creativity flowing once again. i've decided to re-train myself on indesign by putting my old blog into a book form...the plan is to use it as a portfolio, showcasing my writing and design skills. it's a big project and will take up a lot of my free time, but i'm going to finish it come hell or high water. i've been thinking of doing this for almost 3 years, but have never really sat down to do it. plus, i figure it's a better use of my time than playing xbox.
